I remember that as late as last spring I could catch myself thinking "God, what a boring life I have, I haven't done anything!" But now when I think back of my almost 20 years alive I've spent them in a way that many can't. I've done a lot of things, I've travled, I've had and I still have great friends and I've also lost some of my greatest. I've been abroad several times and I've spent my time exactly how I've wanted. I'm almost 20 years old and I have a great boyfriend, and a baby on the way. A baby that'll arrive any day now, due date was today so hopefully I'll hold a little baby in my arms in a few days. It's almost christmas eve, one of my favourite holidays. My life so far has been better than I thought it would have been. From time to time I make a scrapbook about different things in my life and looking in them, looking back at these old pictures brings so many memories so many feelings and I can't do anything but smile and maybe shed a tear or two of happiness. I miss a lot of it and some things will never be the same. But I'm blessed I really feel that I am and I will stop complaining. I will always bring the memories with me and never forget. A life is most often devided into different chapters, and a few of them have passed but there are still many to get to and go through.

Do what you want when you can because living with regret is one of the worst feelings ever. I just needed to get this out, to write it down...