Not in a very good mood right now and haven't been since I left Linda and went home. It was like all the happiness in me just vanished. Don't know why but that's how it was. So I've been very negative towards everything all night. The fact that I can't go and see Tobbe graduate tomorrow sucks. Though I'll probably meet up with both Linda and Tobbe later on that night when I get off work, it still sucks. And on top of it all it feels like nothing fits me. I feel fat in everything I try on so I don't know what to wear tomorrow. I've bought tons of new clothes but feels like everything looks aweful on me. I need to start going to the gym again, lose the fat and just feel awesome again. But how am I supposed to manage that, work AND still have time for my friends?! I don't know... The good thing is that I've bought a calender and I've been starting to write everything down so that I know exactly when I have some spare time and so on.. Going to start planning going to the gym. Now that I've bought this new "buscard" it doesn't cost me anything to take the bus. I have to go before work so I probably have to go kind of early. Well it's worth it. I tried on my two new bikinis today. The good thing is they are awesome. The bad thing is that I think I should have bought the bottom part of the bikini in a smaller size. Well I thought like this. I have no boobs so I buy a smal top, but I have a huge ass so I probably need the bottom in a bigger size. Well I was wrong about that. But that's life, I'm gonna keep it anyway.

I know I've kind of written a short novel now but I had a lot to say. And I'll end this with Nattis and my done new musicvideo. It's a video made to Marilyn Mansons song Sweet Dreams. So enjoy!