I miss a lot of things. In the last text I told you all how happy I am and I still am, but despite the hapiness there's sadness. Sadness of missing a lot of things. I miss going to gigs with my best friend to see our favourite band, we went almost once a month and it's been an adventure. An adventure with a lot of memories left behind, hours on trains and busses we've had a blast, so much laughter. I'm always going to miss it and remember it. But a new chapter is beginning, she is getting married in march and I'm having a baby and starting a family. We don't have time to make all of our spontaneous trips anymore, we need to get home and we can't go across the country just becuase we want to. I'm always going to miss that but I have all their albums so I can listen to them over and over and look at all of the hundred pictures we've taken through our journey. But something new and exciting is happening, I'm going to become a parent, who new. Me at 19 years old, almost 20 though. This scary huge thing is sneaking up on me and the closer I get to the birthdate the clearer it gets that this is really happening. I still feel so damn young, I don't feel like a grownup yet and all of a sudden I have to become one. I know it's my choice and everything but it's still scary and exciting.

Here's a picture of nephew when he's only one week old, he's three weeks old now but I don't have and more recent pictures on my computer than this.

This little fellow has shown me that babies aren't that scary, and I love him, my nephew little baby Teodor. <3